I do the funniest thing. When I watch the movie Legally Blonde, part one or two, I cry. Not a little either. It’s just such a happy show and she tries so dang hard and they can never get her down. I don’t know why this show makes me cry though. It’s not one of my favorite movies. In fact I thought it was sorta lame the first time I saw it (even though I cried), in fact I don’t even own it, but every time I watch I swell with emotion. Maybe I wish I was blonde. In part one I had feelings about how mean they were to her and she still rose above it all and kicked some butt, then there was her nail technician/new best friend who needed help getting her dog back from her evil X boyfriend and getting better acquainted with the UPS man. And in part two when she realized she needed a lot of help she called this huge network of all the Delta Nu girls, yeah this makes me cry to. I guess because… well,…I just don’t know, but at least their happy tears. Now it has hit Broadway and is a musical. I really think I should go see this. I mean, obviously I am cosmically connected to this show for some reason.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I don’t like crowds of people. Most know this about me. I don’t really like ‘gatherings’ or ‘groups’ or even ‘meetings’ because there are too many people. I think it’s because I am a highly sensitive person and it over stimulates me. But something most people don’t know about me is that I actually like people. Almost everyone. In fact, it takes someone special for me to dislike them. There is only one kind of personality out there that rubs me wrong. It’s the “ME man”. The guy or gal who is over concerned that you could possibly on some level be ‘better’ than they are and so they go to great lengths to prove how superior they are or more accurately how sub-human you are. It’s the person who is constantly trying to prove you wrong. They are listening intently to every word you say simply so they can correct any, and I many ANY, falsehoods. Now by ‘falsehood’ I mean things you think you know (and it’s not important anyway, like a song lyric) and you just so happen to be wrong or misinformed and it’s not important enough to have to “correct” you but these people tend to miss the point of what you are saying and go directly to the tiny example you were using to correct the wrongness of it. These are also individuals who suffer from ‘little mans syndrome’. Constantly trying to degrade you in order to elevate themselves. Always throwing out useless knowledge so that you will “think” they are smarter. These are the same people who find all their self esteem and worth wrapped up in “what they do”. If they can’t brag about their job and how great it is, and how important they are at their work, then they can’t feel good about themselves. These people also have a tendency to ‘dream’ of the day when they will be boss. They want for nothing more than to have the ‘boss statuses’ and to rule the roost. And when this type of person becomes a boss, you experience nothing but pure misery as they consistently assign you with degrading tasks simply because they can and it makes them feel superior and happy again. On occasion these types of people suffer a bit from the ‘beat the Jones’ syndrome as well. This is because they also base their self worth on how many possessions they have accrued. “Do they have more than their friends?” “Do they have more than the neighbors?”. They compare everything about themselves and their lives to everyone until they find something that you don’t got so that can feel okay about themselves again. When they realize that they have more than you do then they can relax and be themselves around you and they use the fact that they have more stuff than you to feel better. It’s not just possessions that they do this with either. They will use anything they can, whether be intelligence, their new built in swimming pool, or if they are a woman, their ‘better body’ or even they’re beautiful array of designer shoes. I realize now the reason why I dislike these people. The reason why is because I don’t like competition. I never have. I don’t like to compete. Now I know that there is such a thing as “healthy competition” but I even hate that. I don’t like competing with people. I think it’s because it always makes me feel bad. I rarely win a battle of the wits. I never have more possessions. I rarely have the most, of anything. And that’s okay. But when I start competing and comparing myself with others it makes me feel real bad about myself. And I am just wondering who out there really feels better when they start comparing themselves to others? And for those with the dislikable personalities, why do you have to prove that I am less smart than you to me? Can’t you just decide it in your mind and leave it at that. You make me feel like shit. You make everyone around you feel bad, and that’s why people don’t like you! Yes, there is a specific person that has rubbed me the wrong way today, and yes he just so happens to be this exact type of personality, and that is why I feel I must vent it here. Sometimes you get really tired of warding off all the people out there that are trying to tear you down and destroy your self esteem simply to gain a little for themselves.
Posted by Texie at 10:00 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.
Posted by Texie at 2:08 PM
I thought I should post this because if it works, well then we all should at least know about it!
Posted by Texie at 2:06 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July. I had a great day! America Rocks! Bridger and I went to Layton park to find meaningless items to purchase but for some reason the items weren’t so fab this year so we saved some dimes. Then keeping true to custom, we joined ‘the friends’ at Beth’s house for good conversation, fireworks and food! Beth lives behind the Layton park, I mean the park is literally in her back yard, and this makes for some crazy convenience and comfort when celebrating the 4th. We can even hear the live bands!
So I waited to long, I procrastinated and now I am having super duper trouble with a wisdom tooth. I won’t bore you with the details (or risk list… which there really is one, I am serious, I am not just being a total chicken here, this is a very serious procedure). It will be pulled on Wednesday and I am not even going to discuss how scared I am. Anyway, I won’t be able to chew for a month and then for another month following I can only eat very soft foods. If I fail to do this I will break my jaw and have to have another surgery and we don’t want that! If anyone has any suggestions as to what I can eat, recipes, ideas etc…PLEASE let me know! I am super desperate. The only things I can think of are yogurt, oatmeal, mac-n-cheese, V8 and soup. I have to figure out more than this. Any suggestions would be very appreciated! I think it’s funny how when you’re scared about something (such as this tooth removal) you want to tell people all about it to let them know how serious it could potentially be! You want them to know that your special and you’re in special danger! The average routine procedure for you, could be life threatening! No others have died before you during this operation, no after, but you, you just might! Perhaps I am alone in this and no one else has these ‘Tell the world’ urges. Maybe it’s because of the frequent anxiety attacks its causing that I am convinced that no other person before has had quite so serious a surgery as this! Okay I am nerd, I know. It should be a routine thing, unless he breaks my jaw and paralyzes my face. Prayers and recipes welcome.
Posted by Texie at 9:46 AM