Ever feel loserly? Unaccomplished? Poor? I feel lost and without goals. This never has settled well with me. I like to feel that I am moving forward in life not backward. I think I am going the opposite of everyone I know and If I dont quit moving backwards I may trip! I gotta quit being a stagnant pool of a person. I have to have goals. So in the back of my head I hear my mother’s voice “Texie, you have to go to school, then you can get married for love and won’t be dependent on a man for anything”. I think this goes along with her “leave anytime you want” philosophy. I love her concept, as twisted and perhaps bitter as it may sound. And the truth is...She had these huge expectations set for me in my life and I haven’t lived up to a single one of them. But school is one that I can live up to and even stranger…I want to! I have been programmed to believe that until I hold that little piece of paper in my hands, I will not yet be successful. It’s not about the money, although I will have a ton of it, it’s not about the bragging rights, of which I won’t be sad about, it’s about doing this one thing that will make me feel good about me! When your life is going nowhere, you feel so displaced and unattached to anything good. So I have made an appointment! And I am going this afternoon to enroll in a bachelors program, I’m not sure which one (LOL) but I am sure it will be great. I am going to get some financial aid and get going with my life again! Wahoo!! Got to get it done. The whole Major/Minor thing as I mentioned is undetermined so any suggestions in the next couple of hours would be most appreciated! Need more to go on? Well, I can write. And I am very good at crafts and making things pretty. I can bake and cook good but would never want to do that as a career. And that’s about it, that’s all I can offer you. Now….may the suggestions flood in!